Ever since I was young, I've been contemplating the meaning of life. For years, after seeing the challenges and problems so many faced, I became an unapologetic atheist. There was just too much hypocrisy with organized religion for God to be real to me. I quickly became disenfranchised with it and started seeking answers elsewhere. I became enamored with science and psychology which is when I began studying personality profiles, specifically the MBTI. I was dumbfounded by the accuracy of my type’s description (INTJ), so much so that I became enthralled with understanding myself and others as deeply as I could. I quickly began discovering patterns that others didn't seem to notice. I realized that I had a gift. Even with my increased understandings, I still felt incomplete and unfulfilled.
After my first year in college, I was unconsciously yearning for some deeper truth that I couldn't pinpoint. I picked up a book called Power vs. Force by David Hawkins. In it, Hawkins describes his scale of consciousness and how there are higher levels of perception than reason and logic, which is where I found myself at the time. This opened up a whole new world of perception in me that dramatically changed the trajectory of my life. I learned that life was governed by something bigger than myself and that the only way for me to achieve happiness was to surrender my personal will. From there, I began my spiritual journey.
Around the same time I discovered Hawkins’ work, a spiritual mentor of mine introduced me to Carlos Castaneda’s writings about his apprenticeship with his teacher, Don Juan. This is where I found the third paradigm for my teachings, Fear-Clarity-Power. Don Juan describes how we encounter natural enemies along our spiritual journey. These are the primary barriers to our consciousness’ growth once we begin the spiritual path.
First, we deal with Fear; this barrier is extremely painful in that it usually encompasses intense and sometimes even traumatic experiences that we must endure and face head on. Eventually we work through Fear and achieve Clarity. Here, we feel more comfortable and confident working on ourselves and are able to look at our problems with greater honesty. However, accompanying Clarity is mostly confusion. We see into things, but not into our soul’s intentions. Clarity often is more intellectual and abstract; it’s insight without action. Eventually if we're able to let go of this Clarity, we move into Power. This is the level of creation and action. It’s where we live with purpose and consciously create our lives based on what matters the most to us. This is where we begin to let go of all of our safety nets and live only from our soul’s guidance. Ultimately, this is when we begin to live out our soul’s work. Paradoxically, power must also be eventually surrendered to reach a state of completion and peace, classically termed enlightenment. From my perspective, this feeling of wholeness is the primary goal for any spiritual aspirant.
My intention as a spiritual teacher is to guide genuine seekers of truth through this Fear-Clarity-Power paradigm in order to achieve enlightenment.